Tri-Racial Ancestry

I want to talk about my experience of being what I have now realized is really, tri-racial.

First, I want to preface this by saying that I grew up, for the most part, “white-passing” and that in most settings I rarely experienced bias towards me based on my ethnic appearance or felt placed at a disadvantage due to my ancestral background (except in some particularly close-minded places). I’m not claiming to have experience of what black, Hispanic and indigenous people have gone through in this country, and I stand in active support and solidarity of the blatant need for cultural, economic and political progress. I am also not placing my experience above the experience of anyone who has experienced racism firsthand and/or adversely affected by outdated colonial power structures.

Some people would say that if you are white-passing and white-proximate you are still benefiting from the racist structures and institutions in this country meant to keep people of color out of positions of power. I don’t disagree with that statement and I feel simultaneously victimized by the cultural dominance of white capitalism in which I grew up for I grew up, like many others of mixed or foreign ethnicities, striving for whiteness.
I’m half-Irish and half -Guatemalan which is a mix of Spanish and Indigenous, hence the term, “Tri-Racial.” Irish, Spanish and Mayan, although Ireland and Spain are linked in ancient times and are both Western European so the case could be made for bi-racial, but that’s not really the point here…and I won’t get into the details of how my great grandmother on my Irish side was actually from southern Spain.
This identity confusion and euro-centric outlook doesn’t begin or end with me. Generations of mixed settler/colonial Central Americans strove to present as European and assert their Spanish blood over the indigenous.

The result of this was that I was disconnected from my Hispanic side, despite having exposure as child to Guatemalan/American culture and language, by about the age 10 it had been mostly phased out and I entered an almost entirely white school. I never really thought about what I was losing, I was always focused on fitting in and making friends, normal for that age. But as I became a teen and started dating, I became more aware of my racial difference, especially as my skin would darken in the summer months. But, most people who didn’t know me thought I was Italian or Irish-Italian, super common for Long Island, where I grew up. In fact, my boss at a restaurant where I worked as a waitress once told me that if someone asked if I was Italian, to just say yes. I also had people approach me occasionally and ask if I spoke English.

For most of my life, I felt somewhat confused about who I was and the answer always seemed to be to just go along with the status quo. There was always an inner tug of war about this, a guilt. I was curious about the very small hispanic population at my school. I think it was like 5 people in the whole school but they stuck together. Could I be one of them? It seemed like no, I was not completely fluent in Spanish and naturally shy so I never tried. I feel like now, with cultural awareness more opened up than it was in the late 90’s early 2000’s that could be more possible, I would feel more emboldened, but at the time.. it just wasn’t.

Sometimes I wanted to make my life or myself look a certain way, wear certain brands, cook certain foods, etc and sometimes I would have a deep rebel… a need to self express, but who was there, under this cultural assimilation, to do the expressing?

Being Bi-racial or Tri-racial doesn’t mean you are half of one thing and half of the other, its more like you are wholly both, squeezed into one person and that can be a lot to process. Sometimes in one setting, one dominates and sometimes, the other. I did not have a defined Guatemalan side aside from my ability to cook Guatemalan foods and speak Spanish, and some family trips there over the years. I didn’t have any Guatemalan friends and so this side really didn’t get developed much, but I did inherit the intergenerational trauma carried over through the lineage. I was a fully developed little egg in my mother’s infant womb, when my grandmother was pregnant with her. And the traumas she felt, were traumas my mother felt, and even I felt there, in a vibrational way. I inherited a fear of speaking up, a tendency towards depression, a desire to hide, a fear of rejection.

And what I wasn’t there for, my mother was, when she was an egg in her mother’s womb, who was an infant in her mother’s womb when my great grandmother was just 17 and became pregnant. We know very little about my great grandfather as he was passing through with his ranching family moving cattle through Guatemala. He stayed long enough to develop a relationship with my great grandmother and find out she was pregnant. When she traveled with him and his family to the border, she was turned away for lack of papers. He went on, North through Mexico and she and had to return to her village, pregnant and alone. In this time and place this was an especially devastating thing for a woman to go through.

This sorrow isn’t more special than the sorrows in another family, we all have our sorrows and I touch upon it because a) I want to point out how you don’t need to be connected to a culture of your heritage to inherit trauma from it, because it travels energetically through the lineage epigenetically as well as psychologically and shows up as anxieties, parenting techniques and coping mechanisms, and b) to remind us that we are (almost?) all dealing with some form of intergenerational trauma of one kind or another and it is worth acknowledging that, for knowledge brings power and acknowledgment sets the stage for healing.

Motherhood both helped and exacerbated the challenge of identity because in one sense, I drew upon ancestral wisdom, nourishment and ways to grow myself as a human and mother and to grow my child. Yet, in another I was influenced by the consumerist culture of motherhood, the perfectionist drama, the need to look and parent a certain way… a need to prove a sort of whiteness, which is sad to say…. and wasn’t even my need, it was an intergenerational need.

This same great-grandmother that I mentioned, Luz on my mother’s side lost many children as babies due to unsafe conditions. My grandmother grew up paranoid about cleanliness and had deep internalization of the patriarchy, as many women of her generation had to endure as the cultural norm. I was like a mechanism to survive. Don’t speak up, look presentable, clean up, go to school, become a doctor and space this unsafe place. Most white people, and I include myself in this as I realized this only recently, don’t realize what a privilege it has been just to feel safe because of the color of your skin. Or to feel safe because of your social status.

I had a big sort of bohemian, hippy, gypsy phase in my 20s (it’s a bit of a lifelong theme, I’ll admit) and it drove my mother crazy because she needed me, because of her upbringing, to look clean, buttoned up, hair brushed and dignified to create a sense of safety in her eyes, and for her to feel as though I’d be awarded the opportunities she wanted for me. But, I was a wild child, still am, and I know she loves me nonetheless.

But this doesn’t change the fact that I had the privilege, which she didn’t have, to be that way and in a different culture, that might have affected my life in a way more noticeable way. White people have the freedom to experiment and explore in a way that people of color would likely be judged for.

Only now is it becoming more socially acceptable, and yes, even trendy to wear indigenous styles and have long hair (save the 70s, I still love you 70s). The difference is that now those styles are being commodified in a way that is not fair to the indigenous roots from which they come. Sometimes, I hesitate to wear a Guatemalan blouse because, as someone who looks mostly white, I don’t want to reinforce that I think thats ok or spread the trend, even though it does belong to my heritage. I think that in some cases it can be worn with integrity, if you have a connection to the culture, perhaps it was purchased during travels, vintage or gifted. But sometimes its merely fast fashion and that is something I’m not sure that I’m at peace with. Sometimes we are borrowing aesthetics without any respect for the native culture which has suffered from the western capitalization of the world. That is a form cultural appropriation.

I am still finding myself, even at this point in may life and realizing how much fervor for the plight of indigenous, Hispanic and all marginalized people I do have within me. As I continue into the world of plant study and rewilding I feel more and more connected to my Mayan heritage and more and more passionate about advocating for the protection of indigenous culture, land and people in a way that is not just for Instagram commodification and trendy cultural capital but in a way that pays homage to the civilizations, or lack thereof if they’ve been destroyed by colonialism, from which they’ve originated.

So, what is lost when we assert the Colonial European influence over the Indigenous experience? To me, what we get feels like blind consumerism, fetishizing of trends without awareness of environmental impact, over extraction of resources, hierarchical power structures, fast fashion, fast food, overwork/grind culture and unsustainability in all its forms. What we could potentially resurrect is a restored relationship to the land, regenerative agriculture and ranching, slow fashion, slow food, conscious consumerism, ancestral wisdom, cyclical production methods, ancestral skills and all things regenerative. The future is here, and I realize ancestral methods aren’t for everyone, but we can at least give up the blind consumerism that is driving us towards climate change and habitat decimation. We can at least stop investing in what will ultimately kill the planet, we can stop divorcing ourselves from our heritage for monetary gain and remember to care and feel, and heal ancestrally for ourselves, the past and the future.

It may seem like this is a big ask, and it may seem like, how could one possibly begin this journey, perhaps the personal or inherited ancestral trauma already feels like too much. But I want to suggest, that perhaps, by traveling into personal ancestry, and looking at those methods, there might be something, a little seed, which you could water and you might find that the precise and unique method that pertains to you and your family, could be the way towards healing. When we heal ourselves we heal our family and the planet. When we care for ourselves we are caring for the planet. We are inextricably linked. See what the seed wants to reveal to you.

Equinox Blessings and My Perspective on the Crisis in the Kundalini World

Hello and Happy Autumnal Equinox. It’s not always easy to make these transitions, despite how beautiful they feel and are. What was dealt with flippantly and joyously as a child now requires deeper study, attic work, preparation, food shifts. I have been holding something in my mind and heart for months now, on pause since the Spring, awaiting clarity, time and guidance. 

I felt burnt out by all the screen time by late spring and decided I was taking a break from interacting with the world virtually from Summer Solstice, till now. On top of the studio closures, covid and the reports of abuse regarding Yogi Bhajan, the man who brought Kundalini Yoga to the west, the Black Lives Matter Movement, the resurfacing claims of Western Yoga to be a form of Cultural Appropriation, direct attacks via social media on a female present day teacher that I associated myself with and school reopening plans and our decisions homeschool, I have had  A LOT to think about and digest. I know we all have in this time. 

But we can’t remain silent forever, for multiple reasons. Silence is now sometimes interpreted as complicity. Silence doesn’t help others who are looking for answers/guidance/conversation and silence doesn’t help us process our own feelings. 

I have take great solace in all the Nature time we have had the privilege to experience this summer and it affirms me for that I will be moving to forest to be a hermit the rest of my life. The End.

Ok just kidding (sort of). I do find nature to be a great healer and returning to our suburban home has brought its own set of challenges as old stressors return and we are quite seriously considering a move to a more rural setting where we have direct access to land that is our own upon which we can breathe freely and peacefully. 

But that is not why I write today. I write because I have been brimming over with the need share my feelings, response and impressions of what I consider to be a crisis in the Kundalini World. What happened with Yogi Bhajan, a man who is now passed on, is not ok. It was not ok for him to abuse his students and power. This is self apparent. When his former student and secretary Pamela Dyson’s book, White Bird in a Golden Cage came out in February people were renunciating the teachings he left behind and leaving the world of Kundalini Yoga. Some waited, like I did, for the report to come back from an independent investigation organization, which in midsummer, affirmed the allegations, based on their research into Yogi Bhajan’s organization 3HO.

So, at this point in history, there is no form of yoga in the West that we can practice that has not been touched by scandal. This pattern of Spiritual teacher abuse is not specific to Yoga either. We see it in Buddhism, the Roman Catholic Church and other forms of spirituality. So, it’s an age old tale, once again confronted in present day. I, for one honestly didn’t care at first. I cared for the well being of the victims and wish them healing but I did not associate myself with Yogi Bhajan so I did not feel a loss at discovering that he made moral transgressions, in a way I always suspected it. My original teacher, Ravi Singh had left 3HO and was teaching independently, intentionally distancing himself for reasons he did not explain at the time but now make sense- in order to protect the privacy of the victims. 

I did not feel directly connected to YB through my yoga lineage because I sort of always suspected there was something just weird about him, despite his (supposed?) brilliance. I just got that feeling when I looked at his photo. But I occasionally shared a quote by him and certainly taught Kriyas and Meditations he first shared with the world. Why? Because I found them to be immensely healing, therapeutic and beautiful. 

Human Beings are not perfect, they are complex. I use to think that there could be perfect teachers but not perfect humans, yet now it seems as though there can be neither, perhaps just perfect moments. However, this does not let teachers off the hook morally. In this age of transparency and information it is impossible to even attempt to get away with amoral action as a Spiritual Teacher. Someone will find out eventually and probably even sooner than “eventually” at this point. So, it is more important than ever that we embrace our humanity, stop pretending to be perfect and above ethics for that is an ego trip and dig down deep for true integrity. When we try to be a person we are not, we suppress not only our true authentic self and deprive the world of the complexity and honesty of that but we also suppress our shadow side and then that comes out in weird ways, ie. abuse.

Yet, there are teachers out there that are not acknowledging this. Teachers that I one aligned myself with. Teachers that are actively denying that Yogi Bhajan ever abused anyone and are claiming this all to be a conspiracy theory by evil forces to take down people who are trying to save the world via the White Light high frequency of Kundalini Yoga.

Now, we must be real with ourselves. I am all about saving the world with Light Waves of Love, etc. AND YET, we can’t claim to be a feminist and deny a woman’s claims of being victimized. Even if we have reason to believe she isn’t telling the truth we owe her the respect to not claim it to be conspiracy theory. I just think that even if Guru Jagat and her yoga organization, The Rama Institute, do not want to believe the reports of abuse they need not lower themselves to make claims of conspiracy and a sort of propaganda-like film enforcing their belief system. It’s honestly and objectively fine with me if they don’t believe the truth of the accusations and they want to preserve full allegiance to their teacher but it pains me to see them trying to convince the world (and themselves?) otherwise. 

I think it is possible to learn that someone made mistakes and hurt people and still appreciate them as a human who went through this crazy vortex of what it is to be a person on this planet in modern times and for their contributions to the world and not “throw out the baby with the bathwater” so to speak. I am not defending him per se but I want to support people who currently feel or have felt spiritually connected to him. I would like to see 3HO offer healing and reparations to those who have been directly or indirectly affected by this and I think they actually are offering some online support groups, etc. 

Yet, some choose to continue to believe that he never did the things that multiple people are confirming he did and perhaps this will never change and I am attempting to make peace with that. It is not my job to convince them otherwise and as I said, I respect the sovereign choice to believe what people want but unfortunately it means I have to distance myself when the belief system appears linked to harmful and denial-based thought forms.

And it even means I perhaps stop subscribing to their content and stop recommending them to people and stop aligning myself with their messages. It is very unfortunate for me because there are MANY people in the Rama world that I love and I have experienced DEEP healing with and through their offerings and through my membership in Aquarian Women’s Leadership Society. I have even made professional connections and friendships that I thought would lead me to greater teaching opportunities and had to release. I still have deep love for several teachers in the community, I just don’t get how they could appear to be vehemently deluded. It is saddening. These are people who I’ve always felt are brilliant.

 I actually still want to stay connected in some ways and I don’t think the friendships will be gone entirely, yet, for now, there has to be some distance for it is too confusing for me to be too close to it. I know in my heart that my fundamental views on this differ from theirs and it feels super crazy important when doing spiritual work that we feel safe in our surroundings because we go so deep and open so much up. 

And this is the most I will say about it, I don’t wish to speak ill of people when I know my own perspective is limited and I don’t have all the answers. And yet, I must say this because it’s time. I am actively refusing to polarize myself in this world that is wildly out of control, politically as well as spiritually. It seems that every act and statement is a political one these days. I am not aligning myself with those that hate Guru Jagat and her Organization or that hate Yogi Bhajan, I will say I have a very hard time with Harijiwan (full disclosure) and I basically never trusted him and felt unable to participate in his classes/ workshops the very few times I was present for them. I am also not aligning myself with those that think we can go forward and pretend nothing is wrong and keep practicing and selling Kundalini Yoga as though this crisis is not happening. “We have to look at the wound in order to treat it. We do need to exaggerate or magnify it but we do need to look at it.” -Marianne Williamson

I found Rama and Guru Jagat just under 2 years ago when I was looking for a strong female teacher and honestly her all-women retreats were life changing. One hundred fierce and graceful goddesses in one room is something to behold. These experiences were my source of strength and healing from some trauma and wounding I had experienced related to womanhood and I felt strongly that I had found the place for my processing and healing. I stand by that. I believe it helped immensely in my cultivation of self-respect, access to angelic frequencies, self-love, re-parenting of myself and relating to my partner. Yet, some of it wasn’t for me either and thats fine too, isn’t life like that? I honestly think I would still attend an in-person event, if I could get past my moral concerns about supporting someone who denies certain problematic issues. Yet I also think the virtual world is diluting the purity of the teachings and infiltrating them with social media bizarreness. I think its fine to go digital and use the technology but sometimes we have to acknowledge when it is using us. Even before these scandals were occurring I felt a steady decline in the potency of the medicine of Kundalini Yoga as received through a digital platform, it wasn’t even just the energy the yoga itself but the coherency of the messages being delivered. We know that computers and iPhones aren’t healthy and screen time hurts us so I urge us all to be selective about how we spend our time virtually and emphasize the importance of outdoor connection and safe person to person interaction. 

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All that said, after this season of hiatus I plan to carefully consider what it is I can responsibly go forward and share from Kundalini Yoga, what feels innately appropriate, while some things maybe are dated and need to go. The exciting thing is I can incorporate more from other lineages that I appreciate and from my own stream of connection to Source. I know I will continue to teach, but in a new way, hopefully more authentic, inspired by other streams of light in my life and focused on healing, nature, earthing, the health of our planet and local communities.

Lastly, I will be working on my new offering, Family Energetics, where I combine ReWilding, Astrology and Ritual to examine, heal and enhance family and individual dynamics. It has been slow going right now but when the children begin their shared homeschooling care in two weeks or so I will be able to pick that back up and finish the framework to craft an official offering and start taking clients! 

Thank you for joining me for this journey of words. Please reach out if you feel like discussing any of this further, and if you are a student of mine, I’d like to take this moment to formally thank you for practicing me on this beautiful Earth in this relatively short time that we have had and also acknowledge the truth of the KY lineage, its beauty as well as unpleasantness and leave the door open to future pursuits that draw upon even deeper integrity and continue this energy work and healing in some familiar and some new ways for I do feel that is part of the reason we are here on this Earth at this time. Its honestly not always easy, but some of the deepest wisdom that has emerged from all of this is that we can’t only focus on the Light for then the shadow becomes out of balance and this has been the case in spiritual work for decades maybe centuries? When we ignore our shadow side we actually empower it. But how do we approach it is the question, full on battle, gently in peace, or some magic blend of it all perhaps. I will saw that I won’t be drawn into full battle on this topic, I am saving my fight for the Earth. Yet, how we deal with our shadow side and how we love ourselves directly relates to how we treat our Mother the Earth and my overall deepest prayer is that we can focus on reducing the harm and impact that we put on our planet.

With Love,

Ana Gioia


“Ana is a sage of the age. She uses extremely subtle, and strategic, discernment, to determine what each and every student, or potential student, needs at a given moment, even if the student does not yet know. Based on her deep experience with ancient and modern yogic and meditative wisdom, including expertise in Sanskrit language, and South Asian philosophies, spiritualities, and religions, she is able to immediately do the practice, and deploy technologies that will definitively and lastingly enhance healing, livingness, and wellbeing. Her Kundalini mastery is such that she is able to intuitively call upon, and recall, with grounded practicality, innumerable mudras, mantras, kriyas, asanas, and pranayama, that meet and transcend not only the specific challenges of the day that each student faces, but also open them out into unexpected dimensions that only her classes can convey.

“A powerful adept at the arts of noticing and listening, Ana always already senses not only what might brighten the experience of a student on a given day, but also what will clear the way on a wider lane and frame. Whether during a prescheduled group class, a solo or private session, or using her profound Numerological knowledge, for a private reading toward specific meditations, she knows when and how to meet the student where they are, raise their level, and challenge them to new heights. Ana introduced me to yoga. For someone who knew nothing of yoga or meditation, she opened a window that a person could walk through, and develop their own, personalized routine. Answering and reflecting on the questions and concerns of her students, Ana knows how to respond with strong gong, attentive patience, and resolute practice. She uplifts her students from the ground up, to higher spiritual plateaus.

Whether first-time student or advanced practitioner, Ana carefully calibrates, modulates, and demonstrates practical facility and accessibility so that anyone can quickly absorb, channel, and metabolize the energy that is needed. Ana’s classes are about sound, rhythm, and movement. What is spoken and heard aligns exactly with specific motions and poses held high in the sky or bound to the ground. Her classes enhance attunement, clarity, and perception for her students. No matter what state you bring to one of Ana’s sessions, I guarantee that you will walk away with a lightness of being that you could not otherwise create. Whether you need to vitalize or revitalize your flow, Ana’s class is the way to go. I encourage you to join one of her weekly or family classes, schedule a group or private session or reading with her, and take part in one of her workshops or retreats. You will immediately see and feel the benefits.”

Miles Rodriguez, Writer/Activist, Hudson, NY

Mission Statement

Mission Statement

As the pace of life quickens and the average lifespan gradually lengthens, it is now more important than ever to find sacred and intentional methods to navigate and process the inherent complexities of day to day life, all the while, joyously and devotedly spending our precious time here on Earth.

Kundalini Yoga creates the space for transformation to occur; for the reorientation of the spirit, to recognize what is truly important and heal problematic patterns of the past. It gives the individual the tools to do this themselves, to offer up what is no longer serving us. It is so much more than, “just yoga.” It is life yoga. Its a path to the sacred, a route to the evolute. It is meditation, mantra, mudra and movement. It is Spirit and Soul.



Inherited Gifts

We all have gifts. The first step is discovering your gift. The second, learning to use it. The third, using it in a positive way. And lastly, using it in a positive way that benefits others as well as yourself.


Newly-Announced Yoga Festival First of its Kind in Region

Owner and Members of Trinity Yoga in Downtown Plattsburgh plan the first ever North Country Yoga Fair to be held Saturday, August, 12th, 2017.


Plattsburgh, NY – Local Yoga Studio, Trinity Yoga has announced its latest and biggest event, the North Country Yoga Fair, slated to be held on Saturday August, 12th from 7am-8pm in Downtown Plattsburgh with events happening in both Trinity Park and Trinity Yoga Studio. The day-long festival also includes a lunchtime lecture, Acroyoga, Family Yoga, Chair Yoga, Restorative Yoga and Live Music with the opportunity for sing-along.

With interest in yoga and healing on the rise in Plattsburgh and surrounding areas, owner, Lynda Garrand is excited and pleased to expand the offerings of Kundalini and Hatha Yoga to a greater audience. “We are hoping to get people exposed to different types of yoga that they may have never encountered before. It is common to think yoga is just poses, and its not, its so much more…breath, meditation, sound and deep healing. We are hoping to expand the public’s awareness of what a yoga practice is and how it can accompany any lifestyle.”

The chief organizers, Lynda Garrand and Kimberly LeClaire have over 25 years combined yoga experience and strong roots in the North Country Region. “We felt it was time to take what we have been studying and experiencing and share these healing benefits with the surrounding communities in an even more profound and open way. The vast and pristine beautify of the Adirondacks and Lake Champlain are the perfect backdrop to gather and celebrate.” With a lot of momentum and energy gathered at Trinity Yoga’s Teacher Training program that took place last winter, many of the recent graduates joined the team of coordinators and teachers, as well as some special guests!

Tickets for the entire day are $65.

For more information and to purchase advance tickets visit or visit Facebook/Events.

Address : Trinity Yoga LLC

22A Oak St, Plattsburgh, NY.

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